150 Days.

Welp. I did the math. It’s exactly 150 days since my company mandated a work-from-home policy due to COVID-19. Or, 4 months and 28 days…21 weeks and 3 days…216,000 minutes, etc…you get the picture. And, I know I’m not the only one who feels like those 150 days feel more like 150,000 days.

Such High Hopes

To say I had major expectations for 2020 would be an understatement. For example, here is a post that I created at the end of 2019 to celebrate the year ahead. (Press Play to see a cute ‘lil animation.)

Like many of us, I had so many plans for this year. In fact, I had been preparing and working double-time in 2019 to make 2020 the year that I made the transition from my 9-to-5 job* to joining Adobe as a Creative Resident. (Yikes!) I was waiting to hear back on my application from Adobe by mid-April, and then take the leap. And boy…am I so happy that the deadline was not set any sooner. Little did I know the whole world was about to turn upside down. #countyourblessings

*Co-workers, if you’re reading this, please don’t freak! I am soooo happily employed at our company and don’t foresee me leaving for a long, long time. Funny how quickly things shift, isn’t it?

Realize that if a door closed, it’s because what was behind it wasn’t meant for you.

–Mandy Hale

Coping during a crisis

Once quarantine started, I’ll be honest, I did not handle it well. The uncertainties mixed with a lack of leadership in our country threw me into a state of nervousness I had not experienced in my lifetime. Disguising fear and anxiety with bad habits resulted in finding myself at a very low place by May 2020. Which was a double-bummer since May is when I turned the big 3-0. Not realizing my privilege of having another year to celebrate, I took the childish route of throwing my hands up in the air wallowing in self-pity. (So dramatic.)

The breaking point

Now, I wouldn’t say that I necessarily hit a rock bottom, but I sure did get in my own way of succeeding and finding happiness. Instead of looking for ways to improve myself I just kept retreating to that feeling of helplessness. It’s so comfortable there, isn’t it? Making myself believe I needed to be smaller and smaller. I stopped creating art due to lack of inspiration and was just too ashamed to admit I was letting the darkness win. Finally, with the help of some really really great friends, I started to see a glimmer of hope.

Just because no one else can heal or do your inner work for you doesn’t mean you can, should, or need to do it alone.

–Lisa Olivera

The power of human connection

Around the beginning of June, during a Zoom Hangout (sigh), one of my best friends from college told me about a book that she found in her closet while cleaning. One of those books that you get from an employer or a career coach to help motivate oneself to perform better. She admitted that she didn’t want to read it when she received it, hence why it ended up in a closet. Fast forward to May of 2020, and this book helped to change her life for the better and I am here to confirm it. After witnessing the positive energy that she was not only receiving but giving, from reading this book, I decided I’d give it a shot. Heck, I was not in a good spot anyways and knew there would be no harm in reading a self-help book.

The book I am referring to is called The Miracle Morning: The Not-So-Obvious Secret Guaranteed to Transform Your Life (Before 8AM), which I highly recommend! (Psst: It’s free w/ Kindle Unlimited!)

Throughout my next several posts I intend to dive into what I learned and how I am implementing the tactics taught in this book which helped me to majorly improve my outlook on life and find joy in this year of major setbacks. I’ll be honest, I did not even know how deep of a hole I was in until I read this book. Now, I look forward to each day as an opportunity to shine. 🌟 The way we are all intended to live.

Kelcy’s Considerations:

Do you find yourself yearning for more joy or positivity in your life? Has 2020 made a considerable impact on your mental health? Consider taking a few minutes to ask yourself what actions are you taking to achieve a better perspective? If the answer is minimal, I encourage you to read The Miracle Morning and stick with me as we walk through finding joy together.

Heres to more joy & success,